I haven't updated in almost a year! Time has been going so quickly, plus no one reads this so.. yeah.
Anyway, a lot has happened in the last year. I have had a few health scares, along with a recent startling diagnosis. I am someone who is more susceptible to skin cancer than most, with my fair skin and abundance of moles, so I am always paying attention to any changes in my body. I advise everyone else to do the same, as the human body is amazing and changes can often be ways for it to tell us that something is wrong.
This past January (I think) I had a mole removed and the pathology report came back as moderate-severe atypia. I had to go in for a re-excision to make sure it wasn't malignant and that all the margins were clear. The re-excision was done this past February, and I was fortunate in that everything was fine. Whatever it was, I caught it early, and got rid of it before it could become worse.
Now, fast forward to September. I know I am susceptible to melanoma, and one of these days I was actually kind of expecting to be diagnosed with it. However, I hadn't even considered the possibility of me getting breast cancer. (At least, not for several more years, since it is so rare in women my age). About a month ago, I noticed a change with my breast. I don't want to go into too much detail, but when it hadn't gone back to normal after a few days, I did some research. I realized that most of the causes for this particular change were connected with aging or with infections or diseases which I was pretty sure I didn't have. The other possible cause? Breast Cancer. I know this is unlikely at my age, but it was seeming like the most likely thing out of the other possibilities I came across.
I made an appointment with my GP, and she was quick to refer me to a Breast Specialist. The BS referred me for an ultrasound, which found an "area of concern." They didn't know what it was, so I had three biopsies and a mammogram. The ultrasound, biopsies, and mammogram all happened this past Monday, and I got a call from the Radiologist on Wednesday that my biopsies needed further testing and that I would have to wait 3-4 more days for the results.
That was unsettling.
I went the next couple days worrying, sure I had to have breast cancer. Then on Friday morning (yesterday) I got a call from the BS. She told me that they still didn't have the final pathology, but that she had spoken to the original Pathologists and they told her that it definitely wasn't breast cancer. Instead, she said it might be something benign called Papillomatosis that they might have to remove. She told me I could breathe a sigh of relief, but for some reason (my own intuition I guess), I didn't feel the relief like everyone else did. Something didn't feel right. My mom was next to me when I got the call, and she hugged me with happiness. She informed my extended family, I called my brother and told those who I had informed of my scare the good news. I hadn't told very many people, since I didn't want to bring unnecessary stress into people's lives if it really was nothing. My dad was relieved, my friends were relieved, everyone was relieved except me.
So then, later that day, around 4pm, I got another call from the Radiologist. I was babysitting the kids at the time, but Caden was playing his video games and Taylor was upstairs, so I answered. He asked me if I had time to go over the final pathology with him, and I said yes. His tone sounded weird, not excited like it should have been if he were calling to tell me I didn't have cancer. He told me I had something called Fibromatosis - Bland Spindle Cell Proliferation. "It's not malignant, but it is a form of cancer and will need to be removed." "How is it not malignant if it's cancer?" "It doesn't metastasize and you won't require chemo or anything like that." I guess it is considered a cancer because it is locally invasive, and it has a high frequency of recurrence. He told me he would refer me to a surgeon who would contact me next week. And he said it was REALLY rare, like less than 1% of all breast tumors. I later looked it up and saw it accounts for about 0.2% of all breast tumors.
What are the odds? Well, obviously 0.2%. Or even less, since the odds of me even getting a cancerous breast tumor are low at this age. Crazy.
I consider myself lucky, though. Even though this is an annoying pain in the butt, it could have been a lot worse. And I was expecting it to be worse.
It's frustrating, though. I haven't been sleeping well for about a week now. I don't think the bad dreams will stop until after I get this thing out of me. I'm hoping that happens soon.
What I've learned from all this: pay attention to your body and trust your intuition. Even if it looks like a subtle change, if you feel like it should be checked out, get it checked out.
Saturday, October 6, 2012
Saturday, October 15, 2011
Susie's engaged!!
So this is old news now, and her name isn't really Susie but I called her Susie in a previous post, but my dear friend and boo for life Nicole is engaged! I'm mentioning this because I felt like not studying and this is probably the most exciting news since my last post.
Hmm, what else is new. I'm in my last year of my undergraduate career! It's crazy! Today at my internship I got to train one of the newbies on how to tag pictures of coral. Luckily I don't really have to do that anymore since I can do sample sorting, because tagging is probably the most boring thing in the world. But it was funny, she is in the exact same position as I was in when I started interning there exactly a year ago. 3rd year, taking almost all the same classes I was, same major.. it made me feel slightly nostalgic even though it was only a year ago.
Oh also, I'm not living in Isla Vista this year. I never thought I would say this, but I kinda miss living there. Even though it is ridiculously loud, and gross, and bug infested, and expensive, and did I mention loud? It was nice to be so close to everyone, I feel kind of far away. I don't live that far away but still, I can't just walk over to my friend's apartment. Living away from it is really nice though, it's super quiet and I have my own room and bathroom. Can't beat that. Plus I can always hang out in IV, it's not like I never go there. So overall I like the new living situation.
I can't think of anything else remotely interesting to say about my life, so I'm going to close with this: I cannot overemphasize how much I appreciate it when people show their appreciation for my efforts. It just shows me that it was worth it. Today someone thanked me for something I did, and it wasn't even like it required much effort on my end, but the person was so appreciative and it just made me happy. So yay for that.
Adios amigos.
Postscript. Thank YOU if you actually read this, I appreciate it. :)
Hmm, what else is new. I'm in my last year of my undergraduate career! It's crazy! Today at my internship I got to train one of the newbies on how to tag pictures of coral. Luckily I don't really have to do that anymore since I can do sample sorting, because tagging is probably the most boring thing in the world. But it was funny, she is in the exact same position as I was in when I started interning there exactly a year ago. 3rd year, taking almost all the same classes I was, same major.. it made me feel slightly nostalgic even though it was only a year ago.
Oh also, I'm not living in Isla Vista this year. I never thought I would say this, but I kinda miss living there. Even though it is ridiculously loud, and gross, and bug infested, and expensive, and did I mention loud? It was nice to be so close to everyone, I feel kind of far away. I don't live that far away but still, I can't just walk over to my friend's apartment. Living away from it is really nice though, it's super quiet and I have my own room and bathroom. Can't beat that. Plus I can always hang out in IV, it's not like I never go there. So overall I like the new living situation.
I can't think of anything else remotely interesting to say about my life, so I'm going to close with this: I cannot overemphasize how much I appreciate it when people show their appreciation for my efforts. It just shows me that it was worth it. Today someone thanked me for something I did, and it wasn't even like it required much effort on my end, but the person was so appreciative and it just made me happy. So yay for that.
Adios amigos.
Postscript. Thank YOU if you actually read this, I appreciate it. :)
Friday, May 13, 2011
SPF
About 4 years ago I went through probably the most scary few days of my life. I went to the doctor, and she told me that I had 3 suspicious moles on my back. Everyone knows that I have a billion moles, but I never really thought that they were dangerous. She immediately removed them for biopsies and tried to remain calm but she seemed..nervous. Everything happened so fast, and the paper that went off to the lab with my moles read "Melanoma suspected."
MELANOMA? Skin cancer? Suspected? I was left with painful wounds (luckily my mom was there to help me change the bandaging every day, even that was painful) and this sense of tremendous fear that I had a deadly disease. Not to mention I had to stop working as a swim instructor just a few days before the session was over. I did so much research and found a lot of good stories about surviving and everything going fine, but I also found a lot of tragic stories about young people dying because they hadn't caught it early enough, and it had spread to their vital organs.
Who knew if I had caught it early enough? What if I was going to die from this in a few years or even less?
I was terrified. Here is an entry I wrote in my journal:
(First some background, in the entry prior I had said I wanted bigger boobs and a really expensive camera)
"6/13/07
So, I'm changing what I want. I want to NOT have melanoma. But since I most likely do, I want desperately to be in stage 0. That would be just fabulous.
CANCER SUCKS!
This is so unfair. I am NEVER EVER tanning again. EVER. Fake tans for me.
God, please let it be in stage 0. Or maybe even stage 1, but preferably stage 0. That would be great.
I have to wait 10-12 f***ing days for the biopsy results. I'm gonna go crazy. I'm losing my mind. Please dear God don't let me do chemotherapy or radiation. I just wanna live and graduate and go to college. Oh so badly. I'm not ready for this. At all.
How can this be happening? This was supposed to be the best summer ever. It's quickly seeming like one of the worst. And there have been some pretty bad ones.
I'm so scared. I'm trying so hard to be optimistic. But it's so hard to be optimistic when the word "cancer" keeps ringing in my head. It's such an ugly word. Ew."
(I went on for a while longer repeating how scared I was and how unfair it was.. you get the idea.)
Those days waiting to hear the results were the most torturous of my life. I felt so many emotions all the time and I didn't know what to do with them all. I remember being out in the backyard with my mom and I sat down in a chair and the chair broke because it was an old flimsy chair and I just burst into tears uncontrollably. Not because I broke the chair but because I felt broken myself.
I was very fortunate, because that was the worst of it.
"6/20/07
YAY!! I don't have cancer. Thank the Lord. I'm so happy. And I feel so loved. Everyone is so relieved. And Chris called and told me that Mom called him and told him and that he was happy and relieved. He's so sweet.
I can't stop crying. But this time they're happy tears.
I was so scared that I was gonna have melanoma and that I'd have to go through all this stuff and that I might die. And I am so NOT ready to die. Not even a little bit.
This whole scary experience just made me more aware of how much I value my life. And how I need to be really careful about the sun. BUT I AM JUST SO F***ING HAPPY! :)
Happy to be alive. Just like my girl Sydney. Every day she wakes up and prances around like a puppy. She's just happy to be alive.
I finally stopped crying."
Basically, that experience is why I'm so pale. I used to be tan all the time because I was always out in the sun (swim team, soccer, swim lesson teaching.. just the love of the outdoors) and did not wear sunblock as much as I should have. But now the scars on my back remind me of what I went through because of it, and I know it could have been a lot worse. I am much more careful about the sun now.
However, as the years passed since then I seem to have gotten complacent. I went to Catalina a few weeks ago, and of course I wore sunblock. But I was out in the sun for extended periods of time and didn't reapply as I should have, and I ended up with a sunburn. Now I have a nice tan (at least, for me) but also damage to my skin that I can't afford. My brother reminded me that I really need to be careful with this video, and it's so true. We all need to be careful.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_4jgUcxMezM
Postscript. An old blog that I'm finally posting. Cheers.
MELANOMA? Skin cancer? Suspected? I was left with painful wounds (luckily my mom was there to help me change the bandaging every day, even that was painful) and this sense of tremendous fear that I had a deadly disease. Not to mention I had to stop working as a swim instructor just a few days before the session was over. I did so much research and found a lot of good stories about surviving and everything going fine, but I also found a lot of tragic stories about young people dying because they hadn't caught it early enough, and it had spread to their vital organs.
Who knew if I had caught it early enough? What if I was going to die from this in a few years or even less?
I was terrified. Here is an entry I wrote in my journal:
(First some background, in the entry prior I had said I wanted bigger boobs and a really expensive camera)
"6/13/07
So, I'm changing what I want. I want to NOT have melanoma. But since I most likely do, I want desperately to be in stage 0. That would be just fabulous.
CANCER SUCKS!
This is so unfair. I am NEVER EVER tanning again. EVER. Fake tans for me.
God, please let it be in stage 0. Or maybe even stage 1, but preferably stage 0. That would be great.
I have to wait 10-12 f***ing days for the biopsy results. I'm gonna go crazy. I'm losing my mind. Please dear God don't let me do chemotherapy or radiation. I just wanna live and graduate and go to college. Oh so badly. I'm not ready for this. At all.
How can this be happening? This was supposed to be the best summer ever. It's quickly seeming like one of the worst. And there have been some pretty bad ones.
I'm so scared. I'm trying so hard to be optimistic. But it's so hard to be optimistic when the word "cancer" keeps ringing in my head. It's such an ugly word. Ew."
(I went on for a while longer repeating how scared I was and how unfair it was.. you get the idea.)
Those days waiting to hear the results were the most torturous of my life. I felt so many emotions all the time and I didn't know what to do with them all. I remember being out in the backyard with my mom and I sat down in a chair and the chair broke because it was an old flimsy chair and I just burst into tears uncontrollably. Not because I broke the chair but because I felt broken myself.
I was very fortunate, because that was the worst of it.
"6/20/07
YAY!! I don't have cancer. Thank the Lord. I'm so happy. And I feel so loved. Everyone is so relieved. And Chris called and told me that Mom called him and told him and that he was happy and relieved. He's so sweet.
I can't stop crying. But this time they're happy tears.
I was so scared that I was gonna have melanoma and that I'd have to go through all this stuff and that I might die. And I am so NOT ready to die. Not even a little bit.
This whole scary experience just made me more aware of how much I value my life. And how I need to be really careful about the sun. BUT I AM JUST SO F***ING HAPPY! :)
Happy to be alive. Just like my girl Sydney. Every day she wakes up and prances around like a puppy. She's just happy to be alive.
I finally stopped crying."
Basically, that experience is why I'm so pale. I used to be tan all the time because I was always out in the sun (swim team, soccer, swim lesson teaching.. just the love of the outdoors) and did not wear sunblock as much as I should have. But now the scars on my back remind me of what I went through because of it, and I know it could have been a lot worse. I am much more careful about the sun now.
However, as the years passed since then I seem to have gotten complacent. I went to Catalina a few weeks ago, and of course I wore sunblock. But I was out in the sun for extended periods of time and didn't reapply as I should have, and I ended up with a sunburn. Now I have a nice tan (at least, for me) but also damage to my skin that I can't afford. My brother reminded me that I really need to be careful with this video, and it's so true. We all need to be careful.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_4jgUcxMezM
Postscript. An old blog that I'm finally posting. Cheers.
Wednesday, April 20, 2011
I have...
a bazillion gazillion drafts that I haven't published. Some where I'm really happy, some where I'm severely depressed, some where I use quite a bit of foul language... Some are extremely well written (if I do say so myself...) but never completed. Some I really want to publish but I would first have to edit a few things, and I'm much too lazy for that. So, they shall remain as drafts for the time being. They date all the way back to over 2 years ago when I first started this blog thing. It's kind of funny seeing my mood and personality transition over the years.
In the meantime, I guess I'll post a new one. I don't think anyone really reads this. I haven't made it very publicly known. I think I posted a link to it on my facebook status once, so anyone who saw it then knows about it but even then I don't think they still read it. So I never really know who I'm blogging to, besides my brother and one other random follower haha. But that's okay, this is more for my own benefit than anything. I write to soothe my soul. It's all purely selfish.
So, uh, I don't really have a lot to say. Life has been going pretty well, but also going by way too fast. I'll be graduating in a little over a year. That's insane! I have absolutely NO idea what I'm going to do once I graduate. I mean, I have some ideas floating around, but who knows.
Every quarter I have the goal of straight A's, and I have gotten close.. but this quarter I'm going to actually do it! I can feel it! I mean I'm only taking 13 units... it can't be that hard. I got an A on my Spanish 114C midterm.. and I have a feeling I'll get an A in the class since it's the same professor I had for Spanish 100 last quarter.. and the class is EXACTLY the same so far. Also I had a midterm this afternoon for EEMB142C and I think I did well. Not trying to brag, but ..who's even reading this anyway? Who cares? Maybe I am bragging, no one would ever know! lol.
Also, I am going to get back into shape. My excuse for the break in working out has been this lingering cold thing going on, but that's finally just about cleared up so I can't use it as an excuse for much longer. I am the proud owner of Insanity, so I will be forcing myself to get back into that soon and then in 60 days I will have a beach body, woo!
It's not like I have a ton of free time, though. I really should be working on my chem lab that's due tomorrow morning at 8am sharp, but you know how it is. I'm almost done, so that means I'll have to squander my time for about another hour and then rush to finish it so I can go to bed early so I can get up early and not be late.
Speaking of being late, I ruined my perfect on time streak at work. First, my Saturday morning shift, but I was only like 4 minutes late so it really wasn't that big of a deal, but I think that was my first time being late in my almost year of working at the library. But THEN, yesterday morning. My shift started at 8, I woke up at..... 8:10. I left the apartment by 8:19, hahah. It was the fastest I've ever gotten ready I think, and of course I looked like crap during my whole shift but oh well. I was 26 minutes late :( (I biked all the way there, parked my bike, ran inside and clocked in all in 7 minutes though, pretty impressive huh?) I'm sad, that probably ruins any chance I might have maybe had at being employee of the month, I mean it was really the only thing going for me and now it's gone haha. jk. Kind of. ...
Okay that's enough rambling about that. I guess I'll work on my discussion, even though I really don't want to.
Adios <3
Postscript. Happy 420 to those who celebrate! I didn't, but I think the guy two seats over from me did right before my midterm.. hahah.
In the meantime, I guess I'll post a new one. I don't think anyone really reads this. I haven't made it very publicly known. I think I posted a link to it on my facebook status once, so anyone who saw it then knows about it but even then I don't think they still read it. So I never really know who I'm blogging to, besides my brother and one other random follower haha. But that's okay, this is more for my own benefit than anything. I write to soothe my soul. It's all purely selfish.
So, uh, I don't really have a lot to say. Life has been going pretty well, but also going by way too fast. I'll be graduating in a little over a year. That's insane! I have absolutely NO idea what I'm going to do once I graduate. I mean, I have some ideas floating around, but who knows.
Every quarter I have the goal of straight A's, and I have gotten close.. but this quarter I'm going to actually do it! I can feel it! I mean I'm only taking 13 units... it can't be that hard. I got an A on my Spanish 114C midterm.. and I have a feeling I'll get an A in the class since it's the same professor I had for Spanish 100 last quarter.. and the class is EXACTLY the same so far. Also I had a midterm this afternoon for EEMB142C and I think I did well. Not trying to brag, but ..who's even reading this anyway? Who cares? Maybe I am bragging, no one would ever know! lol.
Also, I am going to get back into shape. My excuse for the break in working out has been this lingering cold thing going on, but that's finally just about cleared up so I can't use it as an excuse for much longer. I am the proud owner of Insanity, so I will be forcing myself to get back into that soon and then in 60 days I will have a beach body, woo!
It's not like I have a ton of free time, though. I really should be working on my chem lab that's due tomorrow morning at 8am sharp, but you know how it is. I'm almost done, so that means I'll have to squander my time for about another hour and then rush to finish it so I can go to bed early so I can get up early and not be late.
Speaking of being late, I ruined my perfect on time streak at work. First, my Saturday morning shift, but I was only like 4 minutes late so it really wasn't that big of a deal, but I think that was my first time being late in my almost year of working at the library. But THEN, yesterday morning. My shift started at 8, I woke up at..... 8:10. I left the apartment by 8:19, hahah. It was the fastest I've ever gotten ready I think, and of course I looked like crap during my whole shift but oh well. I was 26 minutes late :( (I biked all the way there, parked my bike, ran inside and clocked in all in 7 minutes though, pretty impressive huh?) I'm sad, that probably ruins any chance I might have maybe had at being employee of the month, I mean it was really the only thing going for me and now it's gone haha. jk. Kind of. ...
Okay that's enough rambling about that. I guess I'll work on my discussion, even though I really don't want to.
Adios <3
Postscript. Happy 420 to those who celebrate! I didn't, but I think the guy two seats over from me did right before my midterm.. hahah.
Wednesday, October 13, 2010
An Update
I haven't written for a while, and I'm sure all two of my followers are wondering what's going on in my life. So here we go.
I love love love all my classes this quarter. Except Hydrology, which is filled with busy work like drawing grids and counting hundreds of squares haha. But I can deal with that since I get to take awesome classes like Aquatic Communities. The lab for that class is so cool, we get to do fun stuff like go to Mission Creek and perform competition experiments and stuff. I think next week we're going to the tide pools, yay! And I have no class on Fridays! Annnddd I just switched one of my shifts from Sunday to Tuesday night so now I have the entire weekend off! So even though my weekdays are incredibly long, I have a nice long break to relax/study haha.
Speaking of work, I'm working at the library still which is going well. That job is so relaxing, except when we get random rushes. But even then they don't last that long and it makes the time pass by more quickly.
I'm finally going to get SCUBA certified! This weekend actually! 2 more days until the first class!! Not that I've been counting them down or anything. I also joined the SCUBA club on campus and am hopefully going to go diving a lot this year. And next year and forever. Hehe. I wish I hadn't kept putting it off, but oh well. It's never too late! Diving definitely isn't cheap though, I've spent hundreds of dollars on equipment and that's not even all of it. I'm renting all the hard core stuff like tank and wetsuit for the class I'm taking, but if I go on regular boat trips and stuff I might have to invest in my own equipment. We shall see.
I feel like I'm just going on and on about myself, but I guess this is my blog so I can do whatever I want haha.
I started volunteering at the Ty Warner Sea Center, I'm hoping to get to work Friday mornings when all the school kids come in. That should be fun. I wandered around after I met with the volunteer coordinator person and the place is sooo cool! They have one of those awesome sun starfish or 11-armed-seastars or whatever they're called, I'm not really sure. But they're so cool. And my favorite animal, the octopus! And sharks! And sososo much more. And I get free membership to visit there or the Santa Barbara Museum of Natural History whenever I want, and I think I get guest passes too. And discount at the gift shop! So exciting.
Hmm, what else. Well I guess I'm done rambling about myself for now.
Adios! <3
I love love love all my classes this quarter. Except Hydrology, which is filled with busy work like drawing grids and counting hundreds of squares haha. But I can deal with that since I get to take awesome classes like Aquatic Communities. The lab for that class is so cool, we get to do fun stuff like go to Mission Creek and perform competition experiments and stuff. I think next week we're going to the tide pools, yay! And I have no class on Fridays! Annnddd I just switched one of my shifts from Sunday to Tuesday night so now I have the entire weekend off! So even though my weekdays are incredibly long, I have a nice long break to relax/study haha.
Speaking of work, I'm working at the library still which is going well. That job is so relaxing, except when we get random rushes. But even then they don't last that long and it makes the time pass by more quickly.
I'm finally going to get SCUBA certified! This weekend actually! 2 more days until the first class!! Not that I've been counting them down or anything. I also joined the SCUBA club on campus and am hopefully going to go diving a lot this year. And next year and forever. Hehe. I wish I hadn't kept putting it off, but oh well. It's never too late! Diving definitely isn't cheap though, I've spent hundreds of dollars on equipment and that's not even all of it. I'm renting all the hard core stuff like tank and wetsuit for the class I'm taking, but if I go on regular boat trips and stuff I might have to invest in my own equipment. We shall see.
I feel like I'm just going on and on about myself, but I guess this is my blog so I can do whatever I want haha.
I started volunteering at the Ty Warner Sea Center, I'm hoping to get to work Friday mornings when all the school kids come in. That should be fun. I wandered around after I met with the volunteer coordinator person and the place is sooo cool! They have one of those awesome sun starfish or 11-armed-seastars or whatever they're called, I'm not really sure. But they're so cool. And my favorite animal, the octopus! And sharks! And sososo much more. And I get free membership to visit there or the Santa Barbara Museum of Natural History whenever I want, and I think I get guest passes too. And discount at the gift shop! So exciting.
Hmm, what else. Well I guess I'm done rambling about myself for now.
Adios! <3
Saturday, April 24, 2010
things happen so unexpectedly.
Strange thing happened last night. I was thinking about Megan and how unexpected her death was, and how I wished I had had a longer talk with her the last time I saw her. I would have had I known it would be the last time. Then I started thinking about how there are a lot of people who I have lost touch with, or just haven't seen in a while. And for some reason, I thought of my friend Tyler who I hadn't seen in a while. I don't know him that well, but he was in my Spanish class Fall quarter and we were often partners for the little class exercises we did. And I saw him around the bio lab sometimes cuz he's a biopsych major, and I saw him at a party once haha. So I randomly went to his facebook to make sure all was well, and it turns out...it's not.
There were TONS of encouraging comments from people, telling him to be strong and assuring him that he could get through this. From what I could decipher, it seems he had an accident and was in a coma for a while. He's awake now but still in intensive care. It was just so surreal seeing all these comments on his page.
The whole thing was so random. The fact that I randomly went to his page and that this had randomly happened so recently to him. I also can't help but see the irony, because I met Megan in my Spanish class in high school.
He's recovering nicely, though. He is pulling through it all and I know he will be just fine. But still, it reinforces that the unexpected happens all the time.
Carpe diem. I don't know if I spelled that right, but you understand.
There were TONS of encouraging comments from people, telling him to be strong and assuring him that he could get through this. From what I could decipher, it seems he had an accident and was in a coma for a while. He's awake now but still in intensive care. It was just so surreal seeing all these comments on his page.
The whole thing was so random. The fact that I randomly went to his page and that this had randomly happened so recently to him. I also can't help but see the irony, because I met Megan in my Spanish class in high school.
He's recovering nicely, though. He is pulling through it all and I know he will be just fine. But still, it reinforces that the unexpected happens all the time.
Carpe diem. I don't know if I spelled that right, but you understand.
Wednesday, April 14, 2010
Meg.
I miss her. I always miss her. I've been thinking about her a ton lately. It's kind of good that I've been so busy because it keeps my mind from wandering too much, but sometimes I can't help it.
I so just wish I could talk to her sometimes. She was always so uplifting and inspirational. She was always cheerful, no matter what the circumstances. So selfless and giving.
She was a vegetarian (vegan actually, last I heard). I'm a vegetarian and it's getting so difficult to abstain from meat. She would give me moral support for sure.
Her birthday was yesterday. Twenty one, it would have been. So young. You know that only the good die young.
RIP babe.
I so just wish I could talk to her sometimes. She was always so uplifting and inspirational. She was always cheerful, no matter what the circumstances. So selfless and giving.
She was a vegetarian (vegan actually, last I heard). I'm a vegetarian and it's getting so difficult to abstain from meat. She would give me moral support for sure.
Her birthday was yesterday. Twenty one, it would have been. So young. You know that only the good die young.
RIP babe.
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